Confusion and Frustration in Modern Times

Oh, and I am completely addicted to The Big Bang Theory.

Just started season 3 and I am in love with Sheldon.

My oh my, how disappointed I am.

Let me just say that this 90 day challenge is going terrible I am so disappointed in everything. Mainly, myself. I have been hitting the gym so hard, working with a trainer 2x a week, and eating so much healthier. I cut out fast food, most junk food, and soda. I haven’t lost one pound.

I have talked to my doctor and my trainer, who think it may be a combination of the medicines I am on. I had tests done yesterday of my blood sugar, thyroid, and a few other things to find out if anything is wrong there. I will hear back in a few days, but I honestly think it is my medication Lexapro that is gaining the odds against me. I did a little research online, and read about women who have been on Lexapro long-term and around the same dose as me, and have gained excess of 30 pounds and couldn’t take it off, no matter how hard they tried. I am anxious about talking to my other doctor (the one who prescribes me Lexapro) about seeing if I can switch medications or do something to help my weight loss. I really really really don’t think I can be off it (or at least not be on something like it) because I have tried getting off it in the past and it did not go so well. So, we’ll see about that one…

I haven’t shopped in so long for myself. Those who know me will find that surprising, but I swear, it has been months since I bought anything for myself. I honestly don’t even want to go shopping because I want to reward myself once I reach my weight loss goal. I did, however, buy foundation at Sephora with a gift card I was given for Christmas. But that doesn’t really count, right?

I am so proud of my boyfriend, who has been trying to lead a healthier lifestyle as well. His last grocery trip, he bought fruits and veggies and healthier items to make meals at home. I was impressed when we were watching a movie yesterday and he pulled out a bag of carrots to snack on instead of chips. Good job babe!

Completely frustrated and unmotivated right now. :(

if you leave without a reason, don’t come back with an excuse.

This is me, right before I head out the door to go to my gym and have my very first weigh-in for the 90 Day Weightloss Challenge! I am super excited to get the ball rolling, and have my first official workout for the challenge! 

Follow me as I transform my body and win the grand prize!

Wow. It’s been a really long time since I got on tumblr. 

Pinterest has really consumed me. I love finding things on there. It is quite addicting!

My life has become so routine and so boring to me. I tend to like my routines, but I am yearning for so much more. 

I have compiled a list of things I want to be different in 2012.

#1. BE ACTIVE. I don’t just want to be one of those people who goes to the gym and does the treadmill or elliptical and gets bored with it. I want to take trips places where I can be active. I really really want to paddleboard sometime soon. I want to hike. I want to learn how to snowboard, and maybe start going on annual snowboarding trips. Or skiing.

#2. Eat healthier. I feel like this has been a really long withstanding battle for me. I always say I am going to, and then cravings overwhelm me and I am back to square one. I don’t want to completely change everything about my diet. I want to do small things, like cutting out fatty snacks that won’t keep me full for a while, and cut down on portions. I want to learn how to cook healthier. 

#3. Make the gym a routine. Go to fun classes, like cardio kickboxing, and pilates. Not every day, but at least once a week. I think it would be fun to meet other people too.

#4. Re-connect with my friends. I feel like I let myself get too busy, and I lose touch with people very fast. 

#5. De-clutter my life. (And, with Dana’s help and expertise, in two weeks this shall begin!)

#6. Yoga. I really enjoy yoga when I really get into it. I want to start going on a regular basis and get back into it.

#7. Crafts. I want to do something with all my tshirts laying around. I want to scrapbook all my pictures that are in boxes. 

Well, that’s my start…I might add to this later.

seriously, I wish you would just get your shit together and we could be friends again.

Greg: Hey Friend! =D Wow!

Me: Wow what

Greg: High five!

Me: For what? u r weird

Greg: For bein you! Good job. Yeah!

Me: Thanks i really needed that i had a bad day today. ur awesome!

Greg: Wait, was that sarcasm or honesty?

Goofy. And yet, totally honest.

i really don’t like people who are fake. 

genuine.

box seats to the cards game june 23.

private box seats all-inclusive on the 24th.

off on the 25th for jen’s baby shower.

off on the 26th for no reason whatsoever!

happpppppy.

my life consists of working, the gym, my boyfriend, and taco bell with my mom.

and i’m completely satisfied with that.